Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Poem: The Girl in the corner.
Girl in the Corner
I was the girl that was your best friend
I was the one that everyone loved
Everyone came to me to love me and to talk to me
I was the one that would show up and you would all follow me.
I am now the girl in the corner,
I am the one that eveyonr ignores
The girl that nobody loves anymore,
Everyone leaves when I come around
When I sit at your table, you look at me and say, "Who is she?"
I am the girl in the corner.
I was the girl that was your best friend
I was the one that everyone loved
Everyone came to me to love me and to talk to me
I was the one that would show up and you would all follow me.
I am now the girl in the corner,
I am the one that eveyonr ignores
The girl that nobody loves anymore,
Everyone leaves when I come around
When I sit at your table, you look at me and say, "Who is she?"
I am the girl in the corner.
So far...
So far life has been good, not the best I would hope it would be but it is okay. A couple of weeks ago it was our High Schools preference dance. I asked one of my good guy friends. He was really sweet and treated me with the respect. I thank him a lot for the way he treated me and how kind he was.
For the past year I have been having troubles with one of my guy friends. Last preference, 2010, I took my best guy friend to the dance. We were best friends. After the dance he started to ignore me and not talk to me anymore. I noticed that he wouldn't even say hi to me in the halls anymore. Near the end of school I gave him a letter saying sorry for whatever I did and I just wanted to be friends. The next week he started to say hi to me but didn't really talk to me.
During the summer my stake, Im LDS, went to do the Pioneer Trek in wyoming. This boy was on the same bus as me and one of my best friends sat next to him. During the week while we were there, my friend told me that my guy friend was scared and did not know what to do so he ran away, he knew I liked him. That made everyone think that he liked me. His birthday came up during the summer, I took him some things, trying to be a good friend. While I was at his house for like 5-10 mins, he started to flirt with me. I while before school started we had a stake dance. We had to stay after to clean up because we were on the Stake Youth Committee for our stake. I walked up to him and asked him if we were friends, he said yes and I asked him what he thought about the note I gave him and if he ever thought about it. He said that he did think about it. His sister and another girl then came up to him and started to talk to him. We looked at each other and he told me we would talk later. I waited a couple of days to see if he would call me. I ended up calling him and asking him about it. He told me that he thought I wanted to be more then friends, I told him no, I did not. He kind of told me that I could of kind of guess how he was seeing things. I didn't really get that part. I ended up asking him if he was going to my end of summer party, I don't like to leave things on a sad note.
When I had this end of summer party I completely ignored him, I did not want to talk to him. But it got better a little, he started talking to me a little so I kind of just releaxed. I believe it was the next day, I don't remember, but I went to his house, he lives up the hill from me. *Sidenote* I kind of go to his house a lot, to try and fix things but mostly to give him cookies. His mom knows me and always greets me very well. I don't know her, so Im guessing that he told his mom everything. *End of Sidenote* I asked him if we could start over and just be friends and he said sure. So I thought that would change things, it didn't. School started weeks after that. I thought I would be free and not have a class with him. When I got into my Ap Stats class, he came in. I was surprised, he walked right in right when I was at the door. I went pale and I think he noticed. I ended up sitting diagonally from him. Every time I just glanced over at him, he would be starring at me.
I tried to leave it and not really talk to him or do anything with him. 2 times I asked him if I could get a ride home with him. So those two times we just casually talked. When he would drive up to my house he would go silent and not even say anything. It was like he wanted to say more but he refused himself to say anything. In December, after my group and I asked our dates to preference, I went to his house. This time it was around 8 at night. He has one of those doors that are partially made out of glass. I saw that his family was eating dinner. If I would have left, I would have never gone back there. Well I went up to his door and his sister answered. He came to the door and I couldn't say anything that I was wanting to say, I was so embarressed because his family was sitting right there in the other room. His family was quite and they would only say a few things. I told him that what I was doing was awkward and he agreed. I told him that we haven't been the best of friends. He kind of agreed and we sat in silence for a long time. We small talked it up but I said a few things that I wanted to say. The next day we rode the bus home together, I apologized for the awkward thing and he agreed that was awkward but we forgot about it and just talked.
That happened on a Tuesday? Yah I think so. The next day my friend calls me up and asks me if I want to do a double with her and go see Narnia 3. I told her I would ask this guy while she asked his best friend. So I called him up and asked him. He denied but he told me that he was thinking about what we talked about and he told me that he talks to me the same amount as he does with any other girl. In my mind I was like, yah right. But I agreed with him.
The monday after that had happened, I noticed that he was paying closer attention to me then he has ever done that year. Christmas break happened and I only saw him once, I gave him a present. School started and it was preference. With my date I noticed something, that I want to get over this kid cause I am so tired of being treated like that. I am glad for my date for treating me like a princess. It was my birthday a week after that, he sat with me at the table I sit at, we have 2 tables and he usually sits at the other one. My friend said happy birthday to me and he looks at me like he wanted to say it but he decided not to and just look at me.
I had a party on Friday, he showed up late but still came. When everyone was leaving I was talking to some of my friends, he said my name and waited for me. I looked at him and he said goodbye in a nice way. I was even surprised that he said bye.
Today, he looked down and depressed in Ap Stats, he didn't really talk or say much. On the bus he actually started to talk to me, but only a little bit. I surprised yet again. I talk to my YW leader and she and I think that he knows that I am getting over him and he still likes me or he just likes the attention that I give him and he wants it back. I actually think that he kind of still likes me.
For the past year I have been having troubles with one of my guy friends. Last preference, 2010, I took my best guy friend to the dance. We were best friends. After the dance he started to ignore me and not talk to me anymore. I noticed that he wouldn't even say hi to me in the halls anymore. Near the end of school I gave him a letter saying sorry for whatever I did and I just wanted to be friends. The next week he started to say hi to me but didn't really talk to me.
During the summer my stake, Im LDS, went to do the Pioneer Trek in wyoming. This boy was on the same bus as me and one of my best friends sat next to him. During the week while we were there, my friend told me that my guy friend was scared and did not know what to do so he ran away, he knew I liked him. That made everyone think that he liked me. His birthday came up during the summer, I took him some things, trying to be a good friend. While I was at his house for like 5-10 mins, he started to flirt with me. I while before school started we had a stake dance. We had to stay after to clean up because we were on the Stake Youth Committee for our stake. I walked up to him and asked him if we were friends, he said yes and I asked him what he thought about the note I gave him and if he ever thought about it. He said that he did think about it. His sister and another girl then came up to him and started to talk to him. We looked at each other and he told me we would talk later. I waited a couple of days to see if he would call me. I ended up calling him and asking him about it. He told me that he thought I wanted to be more then friends, I told him no, I did not. He kind of told me that I could of kind of guess how he was seeing things. I didn't really get that part. I ended up asking him if he was going to my end of summer party, I don't like to leave things on a sad note.
When I had this end of summer party I completely ignored him, I did not want to talk to him. But it got better a little, he started talking to me a little so I kind of just releaxed. I believe it was the next day, I don't remember, but I went to his house, he lives up the hill from me. *Sidenote* I kind of go to his house a lot, to try and fix things but mostly to give him cookies. His mom knows me and always greets me very well. I don't know her, so Im guessing that he told his mom everything. *End of Sidenote* I asked him if we could start over and just be friends and he said sure. So I thought that would change things, it didn't. School started weeks after that. I thought I would be free and not have a class with him. When I got into my Ap Stats class, he came in. I was surprised, he walked right in right when I was at the door. I went pale and I think he noticed. I ended up sitting diagonally from him. Every time I just glanced over at him, he would be starring at me.
I tried to leave it and not really talk to him or do anything with him. 2 times I asked him if I could get a ride home with him. So those two times we just casually talked. When he would drive up to my house he would go silent and not even say anything. It was like he wanted to say more but he refused himself to say anything. In December, after my group and I asked our dates to preference, I went to his house. This time it was around 8 at night. He has one of those doors that are partially made out of glass. I saw that his family was eating dinner. If I would have left, I would have never gone back there. Well I went up to his door and his sister answered. He came to the door and I couldn't say anything that I was wanting to say, I was so embarressed because his family was sitting right there in the other room. His family was quite and they would only say a few things. I told him that what I was doing was awkward and he agreed. I told him that we haven't been the best of friends. He kind of agreed and we sat in silence for a long time. We small talked it up but I said a few things that I wanted to say. The next day we rode the bus home together, I apologized for the awkward thing and he agreed that was awkward but we forgot about it and just talked.
That happened on a Tuesday? Yah I think so. The next day my friend calls me up and asks me if I want to do a double with her and go see Narnia 3. I told her I would ask this guy while she asked his best friend. So I called him up and asked him. He denied but he told me that he was thinking about what we talked about and he told me that he talks to me the same amount as he does with any other girl. In my mind I was like, yah right. But I agreed with him.
The monday after that had happened, I noticed that he was paying closer attention to me then he has ever done that year. Christmas break happened and I only saw him once, I gave him a present. School started and it was preference. With my date I noticed something, that I want to get over this kid cause I am so tired of being treated like that. I am glad for my date for treating me like a princess. It was my birthday a week after that, he sat with me at the table I sit at, we have 2 tables and he usually sits at the other one. My friend said happy birthday to me and he looks at me like he wanted to say it but he decided not to and just look at me.
I had a party on Friday, he showed up late but still came. When everyone was leaving I was talking to some of my friends, he said my name and waited for me. I looked at him and he said goodbye in a nice way. I was even surprised that he said bye.
Today, he looked down and depressed in Ap Stats, he didn't really talk or say much. On the bus he actually started to talk to me, but only a little bit. I surprised yet again. I talk to my YW leader and she and I think that he knows that I am getting over him and he still likes me or he just likes the attention that I give him and he wants it back. I actually think that he kind of still likes me.
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