Home or Aprt?

Finally made it back to my home in Logan.  I have missed it.  Don't get me wrong about actually going home to see my family and friends, it was great, but there is also a reason I came up here to school.... to get away from all that drama!!!!!  I get home and hung out with my friends, all nighter.  Then all this drama starts up with this friend and a rumor and now I am thinking that he is thinking that I started it cause some people told him that I did and I never even told them anything.  Okay, he can be pissed at me, he can ruin a friendship if he wants, I have tried to many times to save this and I am done.

I cam back up here and "whoo!"  I feel so much better and I feel like I have all this energy to do something great.  I came back and went to Ward Prayer.  Can I tell you how much I love Ward Prayer?  It is awesome.  I love it a lot.  All the people and the spirit make it great.

Im excited for the next 3 weeks of being up here and hanging out.  Im sad that its only 3 weeks and then a month down home and then come back up.  I want it to be like 5 weeks and like 3 weeks of home or like 2.  Not a month.  But whatever, I can chill with more people for longer and do some crazy things down home.... even though I have no money and there is really nothing to do down there.

Party!!!!

Monday night:  3 of my roommate and our 7 roomie and I stayed up tell 4 in the morning making bracelets.  That was randomly weird but fun.  Each of us were like "We should go to bed."  Nope we kept on making bracelets.

Tuesday: Got a ride home with my roomie her friend and my friend.  It was fun and cramped but I got to come home.  I hung out with my cutie friends.  We started off playing some Just Dance 3 and watching a movie, and painting nails.  Then some left and we talked another left, it was just 3 of us at 1:30.  We watched some more movies then played some more games.  I was so tried from the night before.  I was falling asleep. 

Wednesday: We went to bed around 6 and I slept until 10:00 then for another 45 minutes.  I was still super tired.  We played more games and talked.  I came home and helped my mom out.  I finally watched Harry Potter part 2.  I found it really funny at parts.  Hahaha.

Thursday: Today is the day to eat.  It is also the day to be thankful.  I am thankful for my family and friends.  For the friends down here in my home town who still care about me and still want to be friends.  For the new friends I have made up at college.  I am thankful for my roomies and the people in my building that are like my roomies.  I am thankful for the building I live in and all the wonderful people.  The ward I am in both home and college.  I am thankful for the trials that I have, they have shaped me to who I am now.

I am thankful for to Heavenly Father for sending me down at this time to know all these people.  I am thankful for being in the LDS church.

HAVE A GREAT THANKSGIVING!!!!

Dates

My roommate saw a post on another persons blog about going on 100 dates before your married.  I just want to see how many dates I have been on and how many people I have been with.

1. Tyler Ely
2. Andrew Cazier
3. Andrew Cazier
4. Koa Fisher
5. Andrew Cazier
6. Andrew Cazier (Why did I go on so many dates with this kid?!?!)
7. Kendall Pryor
8. Alex Judd (Homecoming)
9. Isaak Wilhelm
10. Truman Blanchard
11. Jacob Worthington
12. Crystal Valesquez (Prom)
13. Eliya Abunuwara
14. Josh Bird

I don't remember who else!!!!!!

Talk

I gave a 10 minute talk in church today on Increasing Faith through Gratitude.  It had to be 10-13 minutes long.  Im pretty sure it was about 10, I don't know.  I was so scared at first and then I was like, I can keep doing this, but Im pretty sure the congregation is done with me.

I am grateful for my friends in my home town and up here at college.  Some of my friends in my home town still care about me and would love to see me all the time and I am grateful I can go back and not be forgotten.  I am thanful for the people up here who I can go to and cry and just chill and be myself with.  They are awesome.

My family is awesome.  I love chilling with them and not doing anything or beating each other up.  That is always fun to do.

I am grateful for a lot of things and the list can go on forever if I go into detail, but I am not.  I don't want to bore you.

Sleep

I need sleep!!!!  On Wednesday I stayed up pretty much all night.  It was registration for all freshman and it started at 12 am.  I was in my room with my roomie waiting for 12 am.  Once it hit all freshman logged into the website.  2 seconds later, the website crashes.

I decided to go down to the lobby and hang out with one of the girls from my building and her friends.  We watched movies and tried to get into the website.  I fell asleep on the floor around 2:30ish.  I woke up to someone walking into the building and slamming the door.  It was about 4:15.  I had a text from a friend to tell me to wake up.  I checked the website and it was up.

I woke up my friend and then her friends.  We started to sign up and get stressed cause of closed classes.  We stayed down there until 7:30, I went back to bed until 10:30.

I am so tires right now.  I need sleep and I am about to fall asleep right now.  wheee

Freshman

Right now all the Freshman are trying to register for next semester, we broke the website.  So all of the freshman are waiting for the webiste to start working and to register for our classes.  Pretty sure I am going to do an all nighter even though I have class tomorrow.  YAH!!!!!!

Giggle

I don't giggle, ever!!!  You have to know that about me.  But I did once on Monday.

We were at Casino Night, no money was involved.  We were learning how to play Texas Holdum and he walks in.  One of my roommates said something to me.  I giggled.  Me!  The none giggler, the less then a girly girl.  Only girly girls giggle.  Ugh, I giggled.

Aggies

Wow!!!!!!!!!!!!  USU vs. BYU was awesome!!!!  We so won and it was way awesome.  We waited outside all day yesterday, well I was in and out cause of class but still I went when I could.  We finally were let in at 5:30 and we got in fast.  We got okay/good seats.  We had to wait for another 1 hour and 1/2.  The game finally started and it was a close game.  The whole time we were sitting on edge.  We got ahead in the last half and stayed ahead.  I pretty much hurt my voice and it still hurts.  It was crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy fun.  I enjoyed this game a lot and I am glad that I sat out all day waiting in line.

Cry

Do you ever have those times you just want to cry?  I do.  Right now.  Silently crying inside doesn't cut it for me anymore.  Everything has just been building up inside me.  I have bottled away things that should not be bottled and they are getting to me.  I want to cry.  I want to be hold while I cry.  I want the motherly "It's okay."  The rubbing back and stroking hair, the rocking, the quite "sh," being with me until I am done crying and feeling better......

I hate crying.

Friends

I talked to my someone today about my high school friends.  We talked about how some of them don't even talk to me and pretty much will never talk to me ever again unless I go see them.  We decided that it doesn't matter if I go talk to them.  My future will not change if I talk to them.  So pretty much, I will probably not talk to them, only the ones that talk to me and still want to be friends with me.  The others... they miss out.

They can burn their bidges while I move on.  So ha.  ha. ha. ha. ha.

I like cheese....

Phantom

Last night I found out that I was refered to as the "phantom girl" cause my roomies could not get in touch with me.  I just had to laugh.  Hahaha I like that, the phantom girl.  Im sticking with that nickname.  Muhahaha.  Reminds me of the times my friends or myself would just dissapear in high school.  Oh those good times with the ninja's.

I still disappear now too, hm.... okay I like it, call me phantom girl.

p.s. phantom also means a type of car.... okay.... I don't want to be a car.  Its also a Justice League person and a Yu-Gi-Oh monster.... okay well then trying to find a picture does not work out very well.

My ears are bleeding, they are listening Justin Beiber.... AHHHH!

20X's

I have pretty much listened to this song 20 times in one day and possibly even more.  I have no clue why I even like this song but I like it a lot.

Like

He smiles, I smile. He laugh's I laugh. He talks, I listen. He hugs, I hug back. I ask, he answers. I look, he is looking. He brings a girl, I get jealous......

I like him

Dance

Pic from the IWA dance.

Last night was the IWA dinner dance.  I had a blast getting to know my date.  He is really funny and nice.  We pretty much just made jokes all night.  He had to eat 2 cheesecakes after dinner so he was about to die at the dance.  It was prety funny.

Am I destined to be alone forever?  All these couples make me sad.  I mean I am happy for them but I would love to also be in a relationship with someone.  I have never been in a relationship and all the dates I have gone on were just for fun.  Never romantic.

Will this happen to me someday?  The day I get to snuggle, hold hands, kiss, be myself without any worries, and be loved?

Awki

So I have his tie for one of my classes.  What a crazy day with a tie.  I would normally never see him but sense I have his tie I had to see him.  At the bus stop I was in a building waiting for the bus and he came and turned to look in and I turned really fast and walked around the building up to the front again.  I turned my back to him and he didn't get on the bus cause he said it was taking forever to get there.

I get to my building and one of the girls want to go hang out with them so I went with her after changing my backpack.  Oh man I thought it was so awkward cause I had his tie and I haven't even had the class yet and I wasn't giving it back just yet and we are just chilling in his room.  I was feeling ver awkward.

I still have it cause he didn't text me back when I asked him when I could give him his tie back.  It still has some of his smell left... hahaha.

What a great day with a tie.

Trick-or-Treat!!

Today was Halloween.  My roommates were awesome and we went to trick-or-treating.  2 of our roommates were not there and we had 2 friends join us.  We went to the rich houses.  Some of them gave really small peices of candy but I guess its because they get everyone cause they are big houses.

It was crazy fun and then we went to the haunted house that was in our main building.  I have never been in a realy haunted house so I was just like uh.....  I saw my RA and I just had to laugh at his acting.  It was really funny.  I was in the back of 3 people, we got split, I did not like being in the back.

I almost fell into the freakn chain saw.  We saw our roomie and she was just laughing.  That was funny.  We came back and sorted our candy that we got.  We traded and then put the reject candy into a bowl.  Its a pretty big bowl.

Good time with the roomies.