Calling

I quite being an RA.  I just didn't have the right feelings for it.  I was super excited to, but then during the class I just didn't get the same feelings for it so I decided not to do the last project and even see if I got in to being an RA or in ther alternates.  It kills me not to know but Im fine with it also cause the Lord doesn't want me to be an RA.

I have this feeling that something life changing before or during summer is going to happen.  I don't know what it is.  Marriage, but I don't have a man so that one is kind of out.  Death of a family or friend, I surely hope not.  I don't know what.  This is also killing me, wondering what is going to happen.

I thought for my whole life that I was going to be the working mom.  But now, after being in Perparing for a Celestial Marriage and just being up here at college, I want to be a stay at home mom but with a back up job, just in case something happens.  I feel like my calling is to be a mom and not be at school.  That also may be because I suck at school and I am better at doing homely things.