Lonely

Today was supposed to be a good day.  I was supposed to have dinner with my RA.  We agreed on it last night.  Christy was gone at a family re-union and I didn't want to have dinner by myself.

He sat by me in church and after the first talk and at the beginning of the second talk he left.  He never came back.  I texted him after church to see if he wanted to still have dinner.  This girl in my ward invited me to go with her to dinner.  Half an hour later after church, she calls me and said her plans fell through and that she was going to have dinner with someone else.  I told her I was still trying to find Tyler.  She saw him and he told her that he had to work in the office.  I ended not going with her.

After the call, he texted me saying he had to go work in the office and he couldn't make dinner.  We texted for a little bit.  I was a bit sad.  I had been a little emotional all day long.

Today was also the day my home ward was changing.  I get a text from one of my besties in my home ward, they had moved us.  I was not happy.

Later I called my mom, they moved the part that made the 3rd ward and was in the 4th ward into the 5th ward and the 3rd ward was still the same.  I cried when she told me.  I was feeling very lonely.  I decided that I am still going to go to the 3rd ward.  I don't care what people say, Im going to my home ward.

I cried this morning when my friend ask me why I wasn't in my home ward cause it would be our last.  I cried after Tyler texted me, I cried to my mom.  I cried about 5 more times after that.  I was just crying a lot and I needed someone to be there but everyone was gone.

Christy finally came back, we played ping-pong, that let some of the saddness out.  He sat there while we played for a little bit.  Christy also asked me why I liked him, honestly, I listen to my heart (cheesy, right?) my heart just gets all these feelings for him and that is why I like him.

This day gets the random day award.