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I moved into my dorm today.  It is 2 and a half hours away from my home.  I cried at home cause I was leaving 2 sisters and a brother behind.  I was also leaving my old life, the life that did me good and the life that skrewed me over half the time.  But my parents drove me and we hung out.  My whole entire roommated have moved in.  There are 6 of us total.  4 of us are staying at our dorm tonight and the other 2 are gone.  I wish I did that.  I need more time to hang out with my fam bam.  Im about to cry.  I need to be strong.  I need a familiar face.  My friend had problems with his housing so he didn't move in today.  I kind of wanted to see him just because he is a close friend and it would calm my nerves down.  Im a little on edge right now.  I want to talk to my roomies but I just sit by them and my mind is blank.  Plus they all know each other.  I am the odd man out.  That makes me feel so much more better..... I need to see someone familiar.  Im glad I am going to church tomorrow.  Maybe that will calm me down.  To bad its at 9 in the morning.  I need sleep.  I have been staying up late to much.
I hung out with my friends last night.  Not all of them came but they were the cool ones that have been a great deal in my life.  I cried when I was driving home.  I was so depressed.  I am depressed right now too.  The kid I like was there.  It made me happy to see him but sad that I will not see him for the longest time.  We were talking about marriage and apparently up here where I am at is the #1 school in Utah to get married fast.  He was silent that whole time.  I think he still likes me.  I wish I could of told him I still had feelings for him.  Hopefully I can get over him soon.
I really want to go home but I know that if I stay up here long enough that things will get better but I am super home sick and its only been a couple of hours sense I've seen my parents.  Im excited to go home and chill with my family.  I hear that if you are gone for a couple of months from your family you get a better relationship with them.  I need that.  I need a better relationship with them.  I have been so mean sometimes.
Im feeling a little better typing this.  Maybe when school starts I will feel better too.  I think I will go see some of my friends tomorrow and Skype some people.
There is no AC up in my dorm.  I am dying of heat.  Supposedly it was 104 earlier today.  GAH!!!  I almost died.  I was sweating so bad.
I need to read some manga.  Those will help me calm down.  They help me forget what I was thinking about and just calm me down.
I need a familiar face.  I wish that boy moved up today and I could have saw him once just to calm me down.